Many a times, I so want to go up to YOU, hug you and foolishly hope that the hug could ease your sorrows. Yes, I am foolish.I feel so helpless everytime you look at me, telling me how stress you are with your family. Yes, it does affect me. But I do not know how to react. So each and everytime yu say it, I would just give you a faint smile and the next moment, pretend that everything is over. But do you know how each and everytime, when it happens, I am really at a lost of what to do.I am glad that together, we have moved this far. If all went well, the next big step would be to set up a family together. I believed we could do it. But somehow, this could just be a fantasy to me, and maybe you.I have always wanted to grow with you, have kids who call you as their father, and build the world we call our own. I really really do.I want to be there for you everytime and anytime, like how things are now, forever and ever. I really really do.I want to let you go. But I cannot do so. I just cannot do so.After seeing and hearing so much, I fear of what is going to become of you in time to come. And yes, it is because of this fear, that I dare not to move on with my life, on my own. I just cannot bear to see you fall.I totally have no idea what should I do.Is there anything that we can do to make things work out the way we want it to?I am hurt because you are hurt.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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